The journal boxes were not one clean diary. They were a working stack: letters to family, ward pieces, testimony notes, temple pages, mission reflections, and private attempts to say what mattered before too much time passed.

This chapter keeps the commentary light and lets the recurring lines come through in his own words. The same themes keep showing up: decide for yourself, act today, love your family better, get your own answer, and start again when you have to.

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"We can never start over but we can always start again."

Today Is the Day to Start

When he wrote family letters in 2002, he kept pushing toward motion instead of drift.

Excerpts

"Time is running out for some of us, and it is never too late, but it gets harder to come back as we let the idea of 'we will do it later' enter our minds. Because later never comes true. We only have today."

"Life is too short to always be bad. It's time to be good, and today is the day to start no matter what has been before."

"You are such a survivor. I love you for that... We all learn and make mistakes, and you are willing to continue, and that is what happiness is all about."

"Pray about it and we can always work things out. Give me a plan, as I always say."

One of the Best Christmases

He liked plain lessons, and this one came from a broke first Christmas in Orem.

Excerpts

"My first Christmas with my wife after my mission was in Orem, Utah. We didn't have much money."

"Life was simple, just me and my wife with no money, but we had each other."

"Christmas came and went and we celebrated the best we could. It was one of the best Christmases I ever had."

"I think about it now, and it's not the gifts that you get for Christmas or the food you eat, but it's who you share it with."

No Borrowed Testimony

He did not trust borrowed religion. He wanted people to know why they were doing the right thing and to get their own answer.

Excerpts

"A testimony never stands still. It either increases or decreases."

"The way it increases is to share it and live it. There is no going back, only going forward."

"It's very important to know why we do the things we do... that is one of the true purposes in coming to church is to gain or to strengthen your testimony."

"If the Prophet has told us to change some things in our life, then we need to go home and pray to receive the same vision he has had... We have to get our own vision and then we will act in any capacity to get it done."

Grandpa Was There

One temple entry is simple and direct. He felt like family on the other side had shown up for it.

Excerpts

"Grandpa was there and he was happy this was done and that he had been waiting for this to happen."

"I feel he will help Grandma Bovert understand the truth."

"Some how I felt that this was all supposed to happen like it did."

Start Today and Make a Change

When he wrote about home and repentance, the tone was the same one he used in person: stop waiting, add more charity, and get back up again.

Excerpts

"You can always get more done with sugar than with pepper."

"Start today and make a change to have love in your home. You be the one to make it happen."

"We never give up trying and we always pick ourselves up and try again."

"We can never start over but we can always start again... I am not perfect and I have so much to repent for but I do not want to give up trying."

His Sons, Grown Up

The family letters also catch him reacting to his sons as men, not boys. That is where some of the clearest father-voice lives.

Steve seated outdoors with his son Jed
Steve with his son Jed, preserved with the later journal materials.
Excerpts

"Let me tell you that he loved his mission. When he came off the plane he was looking up to see if he could go back."

"He loves us so much that he was pulled in two directions."

"I told him that a mission is not two years but your whole life. Those two years are a jump start on the rest of your life."

"I asked him if he was the best. He said no. But I tried to be the best, and that is what really matters."