At fifty-four, Steve went back into the mission field with Cindy, older than he had been the first time and much less interested in sounding polished. The Honduras letters keep the strain in the frame: fatigue, discouragement, language limits, service, work, and the decision to keep going anyway.
This chapter stays close to his own words. It follows the mission from the hard start, through the work and fear of the middle stretch, to Roatan and the way he measured whether the whole thing had meant something.
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Roatan, during the Honduras mission.Steve and Cindy in Roatan at sunset.
"If you want to give up, go ahead, but only a day."
The Hard Start
March to May 2011
He did not hide how rough the beginning was. The first Honduras letters are some of the bluntest late-life writing in the whole project.
Excerpts
"My faith has been hit with a torpedo and there is a big hole where I thought there was hope."
"This is the Lord's church. Not the Honduran way or the gringo way, but the Lord's way."
"I need to forgive and I need to forgive and I need to forgive."
"If you want to give up, go ahead, but only a day."
"Mope around, complain and just give it all you got, but when you get up the next day, get back on track."
"I feel a genuine responsibility for the people here in Honduras to give them my best effort."
One of the clearest late-mission letters is not about strategy at all. It is about children, gratitude, and how worn out he was by the end of the week.
Excerpts
"Friday we had 50 orphans that came from the mainland that was very special."
"Thank you to the dentist for taking care of our teeth."
"It brought tears to my eyes to be able to see the gratitude that the kids had for us."
"As they got on the bus I can still see their smiles and their love."
"I just had a glimpse of what the Savior taught about the innocence of little children."
"I want to hug them and tell them I love them and I am grateful for them."